Memorial Day

Today was one of the few gatherings throughout the year on the Warenski side. Every year the number of people gets smaller and smaller. Pretty sad. I am left with a few thoughts today. One is - why are there only 2x per year everyone gets together? Why does it take Memorial Day to get us to gather at the cemetery to remember lost family members? Is just showing up more important than having a MEANINGFUL rememberence? What is expected of us when we are there? Is all the small talk just a way of everyone distancing themselves from the reality of WHERE we are and WHY we are there?

I don't know... I guess I just had more time to think about things today because of my lack of talking. It seems that for the past 6months we have felt as if we need to keep some things private and it is hard. It is not in my nature to hide things. So I just don't know what to say?!?! Every time I have seen Rob's parents and I get asked "whats wrong" I have to give some other excuse to explain why I'm being quiet. To be honest, it is completely possible that everyone knows but hasn't said anything. Maybe a part of me wants to believe that.