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What to say... I don't know!!! Robert finished softball the other night. It was fun. He starts his 2nd job tomorrow night :\ I can't help but feel horrible about it. I am so thankful for having such an amazing, selfless, husband. I dont know how he does what he does.

I graduated my outpatient therapy program last week. I have been trying for the past month to convince myself I should be happy and proud but when the day came I was really upset. I felt like I didn't deserve it. That because I wasn't 100% of where I expect myself to be - where I WANT to be - that I failed. I am continuing weekly therapy and I decided to repeat the program immediately w/o a break. So, I am hoping my doctor is right ... that if I can let go of my self-judgment habit I can go so much farther. Logically I know I have come an extremely long way from where I was 6 months ago. I just want to be perfect right NOW and that's not going to happen :)

The boys are great. I'm not feeling well so I'm gonna head to bed.